Friday, December 18, 2009

Winner of Book Giveaway

"We read to know we are not alone." C.S. Lewis

I've been blown away by all the people interested in wanting to win a copy of my book. I wish I could send everyone one. My daughter wrote down the names of everyone who commented on the three blogs and then pulled out the name of the winner. 

Jane of the Jungle won the copy. I'll pop it in the mail today. Way to go. 

And for anyone is interested in purchasing a copy of the book, I've posted some excerpts of reviews: 

1....Her story is compelling simply because she should not be where she is now: she should not be alive, she should not be whole, and she should not be thriving in society. But she is! As I journeyed through her story, I became aware of a burning passion at work. It is a story of the loving Creator wooing a lost soul. 

I cried as I read of her traumas. I rejoiced as I read of both the miraculous deliverance and the painstaking recovery. And I will continue to celebrate as society’s lost are found through her words and ministry. Anyone who reads this story will have no doubt that God’s love conquers all and trumps even mankind’s best efforts.
- Donna Dawson, author of The Adam and Eve Project, Redeemed, and the double award winning novel, Vengeance
2.....I began reading her blog and could gather by her postings that she had endured very painful events in her life.I did not understand the full magnitude of the pain and suffering she endured until I read her life story, In The Eye of Deception. In The Eye of Deception is a powerful book about enduring, surviving and overcoming .... It is a powerful story of redemption....a powerful story of how God can turn what is meant to destroy us into something which uplifts us and glorifies HIM. I give In The Eye of Deception 5 out of 5 stars. The book is awesome. The book is fantastic. The book will indeed set you free.

 3. As a Child and Youth Worker, it amazes me that she is still alive after what she lived through. Many youth and adults have far fewer problems yet give up because life seems just too difficult. If anyone had a reason to give up, she did, yet God perserved her life and gave her a desire to bring hope and healing to others. May this book change your life as knowing her has changed mine. 
Debbie Thorkildsen: CYW 

Monday, December 14, 2009

Book Give Away

I've posted the information on my other blog about the book and book give away information. Please go there to add your name. Everyone who has left a comment here will also be added. thanks.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Book Now Available

My book is now available. I have set up a website @ for anyone interested in purchasing the book. 

I never meant this to turn into a book. I never wanted anyone to know the horrible things that happened. I started writing to get the images out of my head and as I did, some people came alongside me, encouraging me to tell my story. 

It's my prayer that whoever reads In the Eye of Deception, will find hope and freedom for whatever situation they are in. 

Healing and recovery is a process, a long process. There were times I dared Him to kill me. Instead, He waited until I was ready. I am so grateful He let me live. Now I owe Him. I need to tell, to tell what only He was able to do in my life.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Like a Dream

I never told anyone. I kept it all inside. I started to wonder if it was some crazy  dream or if it even happened at all. I thought maybe I made it up? Other times I thought - it wasn't that bad - it was no big deal. But last year people I hadn't seen started surfacing - family, friends - people who knew....

You're a miracle they said. How did you survive? 

Survive? Miracle? What did they mean? They started to tell me stories of their memories of  how bad things were, how thin I had become, how out of control......My older sister who I hadn't seen for a long time returned from living overseas. She needed to talk. She forced me to listen....forced me to remember. 

The memories hit. They hit hard. I wrote to get the images out of my head. 

I couldn't eat or sleep. I wanted to get in my car, close my eyes and drive. It felt like it was happening all over again - the beatings, the confinement, the rape - throwing up day after day after day even if I had tasted even a small bite of something - shoving needles in my arm - three and four times a day - ripping my arms with jagged rocks to feel something because I felt nothing. I was numb inside.

Why now God? Why are you letting me go through this now?  I didn't want to remember and yet in remembering it dawned on me - finally - just how far down God had reached to free me. 

Everyday in the heat, rain and cold - I ran - alone in the woods - in the hills near our home. There I felt the gentle touch of God - And I heard His whisper - You're stronger now. It's time to tell the truth of what happened. Tell your story to give someone hope -

How could I have never told anyone what He did. Nothing worked. Nothing could break the chains that kept me in living on the edge. Nothing except the gentleness of His touch. 

The power of His gentleness.......

This November, I will publish my story In the Eye of Deception. A True Story.   

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

In the Eye of Deception -

The book In the Eye of Deception is done. It's now being edited and hopefully will be published early October.

I promised God I would tell anyone He wants how awful things had gotten. How far down He had reached to pull me out. I had never told anyone. Now, I'm stronger. It's time to tell.

"In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, 
Who are caught in the schemes he devises. 
He lies in wait, watching in secret for his victims. 
He lies in wait like a lion in cover;
He lies in wait to capture the helpless and drags them off in his net. 
His victims are crushed, they collapse; they fall under his strength.   Ps 10:2:9,10 NIV 

Friday, January 9, 2009

The Small Voice Inside

I have discovered how important it is to be still and listen to that quiet voice inside us. That voice will never steer us wrong. The outside of a person or group can have all the appearance of being good, or right but it can be so wrong.

Many deceptive people have learned to talk the right things. Think of Jim Jones the cult leader who led so many to die by their own hand. When he started out, he spoke of doing God's work, embracing all people regardless of color...... And yet, he had no idea what truth was. He built an empire to himself, participated in horrible acts of abuse of some of his followers, especially children and became nothing more then a mad man leading people who hungered for truth.